say sorry to Stephy (存錄)

不知道發生了甚麼事, 也不管這個道歉有多真心, 總之這篇賠罪文章就是圓滑得體得不得了, 既溫柔又堅決, 立場寸步不讓, 說話卻令人受用.

(當然, 在一個讀歷史的人眼中, 總疑心一個人越曉得說話, 他的話就越不令人放心.)

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袁彌明, I want to say sorry to Stephy:

I am sorry. I want to say sorry to Stephy.

But first of all, I want to say sorry for writing this in English. I do not want people to think that I am trying to be superior writing in English. I really want to apologize as quickly as possible and the only way I can do it quickest, is in English. As my Chinese typing would not do in the same velocity as in English.

I was lucky to stay out of Hong Kong's education system after getting so-so grades at HKCEE.

By the time I got to University, I discovered that I was not so dumb after all. In fact, I think if the same opportunity was given to Stephy, she would have done even better than I did.

Form 5. Form 5 became the full stop to so many people's education in Hong Kong not because they are not talented, but simply because the education system in Hong Kong is broken.

Broken by the government.

So you might ask. Why did I try to say that Stephy was intellectually lacking when I know full well it wasn't her, but the system that is broken.

I was angry. I love books, but I let my emotion took control. I disagree completely that reading a few pages of a book would allow someone to decide how good a book is.

I always believed, like dealing with men, unless you read the whole book, to the very last page, the book might turn out to be good or bad.

I knew that by attacking someone's education back ground, that in our diseased culture, it would hurt. It would hurt someone's emotion. For that I am wrong.

But let me be clear. Even if a professor or a PhD were to say that a book can be decided by a few pages, I would still disagree. Just as strong.

I hope very much Stephy will forgive me for being too emotional. And I have learned the lesson not to be vindictive about one's education. For after all, going to a lot of schools does not mean one is smart, and not going does not make one any less so.